Haine is sulking and, well, let's just say our pride as, so-called by our colleagues, 'perfectionist' has gone down the drain. There's part of me that feels so humiliated of myself that I just want to quit.
But there's a part of me that says "failure is the best teacher in the world" and I should learn from my mistakes and keep things going.
But there's a part of me that says "failure is the best teacher in the world" and I should learn from my mistakes and keep things going.
My boss did not say "you are a failure, you should just quit". Instead, he was willing enough to recheck my work and accepted my failure. I guess that's what hit Haine so badly.
We both feel like we have betrayed their trust on us. I want to make them proud, to ease them and to let them believe hiring me- a Diploma holder- is not a waste.
Today, it made me think. Am I capable of doing such things?
Today is the day my boss scolded me. I can see in Encik Shahril's eyes the surprise and huge disappointment in me. He trusted me and now I doubt he does.
I doubt I trust myself and my work too.
Today is also the day my boss actually consulted me afterwards and said I had shown great effort but the output is no so 'comel' (great).
After scolding me, Miss Sarina called me and told me that I did show my effort and she admired it, but I get her message. When it comes to work- the adult world- effort is not enough. People want to see the product and that's what I'm lacking at.
After scolding me, Miss Sarina called me and told me that I did show my effort and she admired it, but I get her message. When it comes to work- the adult world- effort is not enough. People want to see the product and that's what I'm lacking at.
Despite my effort is huge, I still not able to produce top-quality report. Sometimes I wonder myself, am I truly as smart as I thought I was back in college?
Today is the day my boss made me feel I should not be too over confident and do things more seriously.
I think it's time I change myself. Humans can't change in split second, but humans do have choices and they can change in time. Life evolves, so as humans, so as us.
For now, I am calming Haine down. We both feel we have lost in the battle we thought we are going to win. Humiliation and pride are scarred badly that to be able to put on the same confident face to both Encik Shahril and Miss Sarina might be hard- no, the hardest thing to do right now.
Conquer your failure and improve yourself. The greatest way to learn is through failure. I don't want to disappoint them anymore. To me, they are second parents- I have so much things to learn and to show them, to make them feel proud of me and make sure I contribute enough for them.
I like them. I like my bosses and my job.
So I must pull myself together, learn from my mistakes and improve my work.
Yes. That's what I will do.
With less than a month half, I need to step up and be serious.
Haine, I'm counting on you.
